![]() So what did I do? Well, I went to a meeting. I just didn’t see any future in my future but misery and punishment. For, after all, the tracks are only 2 blocks from my home and we have over 24 trains come through day and night. What I wanted to do yesterday, was to send my mate home to Florida, get myself real drunk and commit suicide by sitting on our railroad tracks. My thought pattern is that I was being punished by my Higher Power for being such an idiot for leaving my home over 2 years ago in an insane belief that some strange man actually might be what I had been searching for in my loneliness. Yesterday, I was into big time self-pity and hopelessness. I couldn’t believe these two readings, for yesterday I was in poor shape. At that moment, I realized this was serenity, and I laughed out loud for the sheer, glorious pleasure of it!” From Survival to Recovery, p.268 “I felt utterly at peace with life and at the same time filled with joy. ![]() It’s about my ability to flourish peacefully no matter what life brings my way. It increases my confidence, which comes from trusting that the Higher Power of my understanding will sustain me and guide me through life’s ups and downs. It teaches me that I can make choices to redirect my life toward personal growth and satisfaction. My Higher Power, working through my fellow members, helps me maintain my sanity and sense of self-worth.Īl-Anon also give me the opportunity to live a serene life free from the burden of responsibility for other’s decisions. The program helps me learn how to request, accept, and use the strength and wisdom of my Higher Power. It does, however, give me the opportunity to learn from others how to develop the necessary skills for maintaining peace of mind, even when life seems most unbearable. Rather, it is the power to find peacefulness within life.Īl-Anon does not promise me freedom from pain, sorrow, or difficult situations. The serenity I am offered in Al-Anon is not an escape from life. Serenity – Hope for Today – May 20, p.141 When i remember my gratitude list, it’s very hard to conclude that God is picking on me.ĭouble Whammy Today………. – the whole gamut.Įvery day in my prayers, I ask God to help me remember my list, and to be grateful for it throughout the day. The list ran to two pages, and took two hours to compile I included health, family, money, A.A. I went through seventy-four years of living right up to the present moment. ![]() What did I have to be grateful for? I shut myself up and started listing the blessings for which I was in no way responsible, beginning with having been born of sound mind and body. One exercise that I practice is to try for a full inventory of my blessings… AS BILL SEES IT, P. ![]()
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